Friday, August 31, 2018
HUH!
I just put a bunch of stuff in a garbage bag to get rid of.
I just have to organize art and office supplies, mostly, shuffle things around ... oh, and furniture!
I just have to organize art and office supplies, mostly, shuffle things around ... oh, and furniture!
Airheads Commerical
It's cool to see the guy look so excited when he looks up and says, "Why not? Come on!" He's probably a good friend.
also, bathroom stuff to get rid of
I wish I owned nicer pajamas, underwear, bras, socks...
Next month, I may get a new Google Chromebook. The keys keep sticking on the one I have.
I'm nothing, and I own nothing. I started some exercises. I hope I clean up by the end of today so I can do some more, need it.
I wish I owned nicer pajamas, underwear, bras, socks...
Next month, I may get a new Google Chromebook. The keys keep sticking on the one I have.
I'm nothing, and I own nothing. I started some exercises. I hope I clean up by the end of today so I can do some more, need it.
Thursday, August 30, 2018
They put something stupid on TV... a psychiatric patient, normal girl a little overweight, was tied up and just pushed herself away from a table. That's not unheard of. They act like that means she's mentally ill, but normal people do that and she must be very mad and uptight and feeling weird there.
Smart Guy
Americans resort to racism like Hitler just to blame their problems, but they want to make sure no one can live anywhere of any race, like say if they let minorities have America.
I know one thing "wrong." I can't get like I'm born later with 2 Late Boomer parents. So, life is different messages to me. It's not really my fault. Most people suck worse than me. People just like to see me a certain way. I just hate being in trouble, suddenly about who I am. Someone acted like I wasn't good enough, whereas, before, I was, and she seems to have some of the same problems because we lived in the same area. Where I moved, girls all did dance since they were a toddler and stayed happy, if they didn't do anything else. I know one girl with sorta long German last name did soccer with her dad and older sister and was in Talented Art. Another girl had white hair and was really hot and did sports, in high school.
Creeping Up
Not that I have much to do with anyone, but they thought since I was good that I should be seen as bad and other people should be seen as better than me.
Do you feel people are uptight and expect things from you in picky ways? Why would life be so unnecessarily complicated for some people who don't want to live like that? People must find common ground basing their problems against me with one another. Bah! They shouldn't look into it too much. I didn't do these things people say I did, that people wanted me to be uptight about.
What if some people were a little naughty and wanted to play cello because they thought the violin had problems and made fun of it? Would that mean I would have to sacrifice my built interest in violin, through the grapevine because of them, like to trade but for no real reason? Would people still care about them and/but at my expense? It always happens in movies; before someone gets in trouble and something bad happens to them, they goof up in some other way, like it matters and fascinates the writer.
Being Grouped With Older People as a Generation
Why should I be grouped with my dad as a generation? I don't think this is right.
I used to be normal and good and no one bothered me. I pretty much almost never messed up.
However, now, it seems people are "playing smart with me" and acting like they know I'm gonna have an attitude and things are gonna tick the wrong way as a community of people. It feels like people are all up in me. It's so awkward. It's like, where did they come from? I thought only Mom and Dad did that, which in some ways they seem more distant though I'm more sensitive to being offended.
I notice that with younger people, some older adults say they get the ball rolling with them and try to enlighten me with feeling occupied like I'll get things I can't get, as a diversion where they are just too scared to let me live my life. So, I "wait it out" and younger people they "try" to see if they can cheer them up from personal problems like their parents's mistakes, while I'm forgotten and they justify that fact with things like being racistly intrusive to me, maybe preventing me from socializing or making me confused like nothing matters anymore, like people believe, like after 18.
So, I used to feel good because I was good at not messing up in how I act, and I had privacy and a wonderful world. People see in me a fight coming when I didn't intend for it, and I sorta guarded off the attacks. It was because other people did it, too. So, people gradually and "creatively" infiltrated themselves in me, like they were more than just me. I wait for things I never get, and people take credit for what I do for myself integrated in this agitation.
See, the thing is I don't start attacks with people, but if they bother me and get under my skin too much I don't know what to do. They won't stop. It's like I said, I used to have my privacy and never meant to hurt anyone emotionally. I can't stand some things, and that's why I'm saying this now. This is one way I deal with it. My point wasn't to sound mean. If you'll notice, I basically said I was happier before and had more privacy and now I feel awkward and irritated. I compared myself to younger people and white people or non-Asian people. What it is is like they get things I don't get socially, not saying I don't get anything nor should be that unhappy when it comes to life in general in every way. It comes in the form of that they get the ball rolling, but I'm left being ransacked and like I'm waiting for what people younger than me already do, though it never happens.
However, now, it seems people are "playing smart with me" and acting like they know I'm gonna have an attitude and things are gonna tick the wrong way as a community of people. It feels like people are all up in me. It's so awkward. It's like, where did they come from? I thought only Mom and Dad did that, which in some ways they seem more distant though I'm more sensitive to being offended.
I notice that with younger people, some older adults say they get the ball rolling with them and try to enlighten me with feeling occupied like I'll get things I can't get, as a diversion where they are just too scared to let me live my life. So, I "wait it out" and younger people they "try" to see if they can cheer them up from personal problems like their parents's mistakes, while I'm forgotten and they justify that fact with things like being racistly intrusive to me, maybe preventing me from socializing or making me confused like nothing matters anymore, like people believe, like after 18.
So, I used to feel good because I was good at not messing up in how I act, and I had privacy and a wonderful world. People see in me a fight coming when I didn't intend for it, and I sorta guarded off the attacks. It was because other people did it, too. So, people gradually and "creatively" infiltrated themselves in me, like they were more than just me. I wait for things I never get, and people take credit for what I do for myself integrated in this agitation.
See, the thing is I don't start attacks with people, but if they bother me and get under my skin too much I don't know what to do. They won't stop. It's like I said, I used to have my privacy and never meant to hurt anyone emotionally. I can't stand some things, and that's why I'm saying this now. This is one way I deal with it. My point wasn't to sound mean. If you'll notice, I basically said I was happier before and had more privacy and now I feel awkward and irritated. I compared myself to younger people and white people or non-Asian people. What it is is like they get things I don't get socially, not saying I don't get anything nor should be that unhappy when it comes to life in general in every way. It comes in the form of that they get the ball rolling, but I'm left being ransacked and like I'm waiting for what people younger than me already do, though it never happens.
Wednesday, August 29, 2018
Already Lying
They are just ruining my relationship with an older lady one step at at time. They are acting like I have to go find her before it stops.
Liars
Females relating to females are supposed to exist. It's not gay to relate to a female like a female.
Get this, though... I went to use the bathroom and closed the door aggressively to signal the person making the annoying noises to stop but not slamming it. Then, they emitted I can never have my relationship. People are acting like it all around from the monitoring me in private. I was just trying to eat and my family was always on the verge imprinting a bemused smile to me. The people monitoring me in private keep acting bemused and batshit crazy getting under my skin too. Now, they won't stop bothering me, too. I am worried they are not really women.
Message Board
I said this:
Re: Are you afraid of what older adults tell you to do?
Someone else said this:
I don't do what no one tells me to
Okay, so am I the sacrifice? Who did this? I need to know. Older people? Is there something wrong with talking to me? I may not have the same opinion tomorrow or when I wake up.
Re: Are you afraid of what older adults tell you to do?
Someone else said this:
I don't do what no one tells me to
Okay, so am I the sacrifice? Who did this? I need to know. Older people? Is there something wrong with talking to me? I may not have the same opinion tomorrow or when I wake up.
The world is shit.
They're just a bunch of racist vagrants.
What are they counting on? For some mixed race person to become a fair weathered celebrity but not live gloriously like people like Marilyn Monroe?
What are they counting on? For some mixed race person to become a fair weathered celebrity but not live gloriously like people like Marilyn Monroe?
Marilyn Monroe
People have annoyed me and get onto me when I think about them in a certain way.
My life goes that my relationship with an older lady randomly pops up as being "stolen" by others I know. It's so pathetic yet sad, people trying to be something at the last minute with some things but not caring to talk to me otherwise.
My life goes that my relationship with an older lady randomly pops up as being "stolen" by others I know. It's so pathetic yet sad, people trying to be something at the last minute with some things but not caring to talk to me otherwise.
"Where is the love?"
Why can't we just ignore some things?
Like, some people don't get along, but we work on that. You don't have to cancel all your other plans in the shadows.
Like, some people don't get along, but we work on that. You don't have to cancel all your other plans in the shadows.
A Guide to the Truth
I'll show you not to discipline me.
What if ... Younger people cannot be racist to me in one way, or else.
What if ... Older people can't "get" whatever they want, or else their generation doesn't matter, which I guess for some that's unfortunately already true.
I didn't really fight or hurt anyone like other people.
What if ... Younger people cannot be racist to me in one way, or else.
What if ... Older people can't "get" whatever they want, or else their generation doesn't matter, which I guess for some that's unfortunately already true.
I didn't really fight or hurt anyone like other people.
Tuesday, August 28, 2018
Hollywood is meaningless.
People act bad/mean.
You never even meet those people. They are locked away in huge buildings and can't earn a living.
You never even meet those people. They are locked away in huge buildings and can't earn a living.
Harvard-Like Intelligence
Black people get down with the Spanish but should leave them be. When it comes time to identify your race, they are with the whites. Have fun with the whites everyone loves.
There's nothing there.
Early Generation X teamed up with Early Boomers to parent us Generation XY by doing stupid things, to say if we feel a bit giddy and moody and sorta mock life that we're being bad and that they're just there to tell us not to do that, but nothing important or adequately intelligent or even right.
Monday, August 27, 2018
"U R the 1" on Music Choice
I think this rare CD was released in 1997 and is hard to find the CD of.
Suzuki
There are 10 books, and I am almost done with 2. There aren't many songs in it, though, maybe around 10 or so. I plan to record a video of myself playing all the songs in each book and posting it on my YouTube.
A Happy Plan
I already cleaned. I want to own, like, nothing, but for things like violin books, clothes I like, maybe my DVDs unless I can sell them.
I am trying to move to Europe, specifically Germany I want and to learn violin.
I am trying to move to Europe, specifically Germany I want and to learn violin.
Sunday, August 26, 2018
Did you know it's too late? I'm sorry I didn't make it before I existed. What to do about how the world is, now? I don't have a car and am tired on medicine. I feel something drawing me to do something in the US first when I was excited to move to Germany. Well, technically, I should move to Europe, ASAP. I've never been there, yet.
I could have had a good relationship, but people keep ruining it, like the people monitoring me in private, Orlando making it so hard for me to focus since I'm not born here, some people I know always onto me... I'm in trouble if bad words come to mind by accident when attacked repetitively because someone pointed out I shouldn't do it when I never thought of violence/harm, before. I'm mad about me being in trouble and everyone else is okay in the end.
Meanwhile...
...there seems as though there is no legitimate hope for me because I didn't start violin early enough and maybe damaged my arms when upset because of watching Ellen DeGeneres and talking to fans of Johnny Depp.
....an older lady I like was inappropriately stimulated when exploited. Now, I have to juggle the idea that the people monitoring me in private had it done. People don't always feel like they matter to me then.
...people think I am bad because I accidentally spammed some people and was upset at others. They all blocked me, though I was just having a hard time and they wouldn't talk to me. This wasn't yesterday; this was over 10 years ago.
...It was uptight watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show every day in 2012-2016. She didn't really accept me and exploited an older lady I like, with the excuse she found out.
....an older lady I like was inappropriately stimulated when exploited. Now, I have to juggle the idea that the people monitoring me in private had it done. People don't always feel like they matter to me then.
...people think I am bad because I accidentally spammed some people and was upset at others. They all blocked me, though I was just having a hard time and they wouldn't talk to me. This wasn't yesterday; this was over 10 years ago.
...It was uptight watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show every day in 2012-2016. She didn't really accept me and exploited an older lady I like, with the excuse she found out.
Saturday, August 25, 2018
I feel like something stopped.
I would not want to be like Ellen DeGeneres and see all those movies and things every day. Celebrate her!
It seems like it's all about inappropriately stimulating an older lady I like, here for me with Orlando and the people involved monitoring me in private. It's like the people closest to me lied, where for a long time it was about my hardships I could not escape, though I never said they had to do it. This was supposedly a good thing for me, but it got taken away, in that it's getting more to be that the purpose is to make her giddy in weird ways, like the "go to" thing to do.
Andrew Lloyd Webber
Stairs without railing was put in The Phantom of the Opera.
When Jesus Christ Superstar streamed throughout the world, the police were taken out.
So, I guess he's becoming more modern or something, trying to change things. It is his work, but music is music and belongs to everyone. Yes, I respect him, but I noticed this and it was funny.
When Jesus Christ Superstar streamed throughout the world, the police were taken out.
So, I guess he's becoming more modern or something, trying to change things. It is his work, but music is music and belongs to everyone. Yes, I respect him, but I noticed this and it was funny.
Hurrying up and Packing My Things
Eventually, I will own almost nothing so I can move easily to Germany.
Is it my fault I feel like I was murdered? or did drinking and getting drunk have a role in it?
I can just see my future self lying on the street, "covered in blood," not such a painful death as it could be. Too much TV about this stuff.
What? My life is so worthless because I live in Orlando etc. that I cannot even sacrifice it for something or someone worth it.
I can just see my future self lying on the street, "covered in blood," not such a painful death as it could be. Too much TV about this stuff.
What? My life is so worthless because I live in Orlando etc. that I cannot even sacrifice it for something or someone worth it.
Did you know that people who are attractive for working with things like acting and feelings ... it looks like there might not be anything in that regard, just that they oversaw the work like an indifferent, disconnected worker who likes to play with art rather than become it, like the people they take care of.
I got the idea from Doug; Doug's romantic big sister was directing students.
I got the idea from Doug; Doug's romantic big sister was directing students.
Friday, August 24, 2018
Here's a little song ...
I'm learning Suzuki 2 and here is one song I am doing, 1st in the book. Funny, I don't even use vibrato in the songs, yet. I didn't even find this song emotional.
People are obsessed with rather childish people with young dads and/or 15-year-old moms. Only recently, did they get the signal to pretend to grow up, in some way, just to hide what they're really up to. You know you can act young again, especially when you are still young and active.
Some people have kids very young, like 20. Are they becoming competition to normal people?
Some people have kids very young, like 20. Are they becoming competition to normal people?
I miss being a music major. I wanna go back, but I feel decrepit. Also, it's 14 years later. I have been singing. I can still play piano but haven't been much.
I was in this string class in college, and I was good. No one said anything directly to me about it. At another music school, an older guy said he did harp as a group class and toured I think The Sound of Music playing harp. I was gonna keep up violin. It might have been hard also doing piano and organ, which I had to drive to a church to practice, maybe M-F, but not for many years total playing organ, 1 in college.
People used to find me accomplished: art, music, etc., clubs in high school. I don't know why I would seem dormant now. I'm good at posting online now because it's been 10 years I mainly did that more than anything. You know, like talking well. I didn't remember I wanted to play violin, but I ended up doing that after all these years. I've been playing 3 years. I may have damaged arms from when I was upset watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and some before from being upset at racism against me online on the Johnny Depp board.
I was in this string class in college, and I was good. No one said anything directly to me about it. At another music school, an older guy said he did harp as a group class and toured I think The Sound of Music playing harp. I was gonna keep up violin. It might have been hard also doing piano and organ, which I had to drive to a church to practice, maybe M-F, but not for many years total playing organ, 1 in college.
People used to find me accomplished: art, music, etc., clubs in high school. I don't know why I would seem dormant now. I'm good at posting online now because it's been 10 years I mainly did that more than anything. You know, like talking well. I didn't remember I wanted to play violin, but I ended up doing that after all these years. I've been playing 3 years. I may have damaged arms from when I was upset watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and some before from being upset at racism against me online on the Johnny Depp board.
Something Funny
There's an older lady I know, and we have a good relationship.
I was underground famous before I met her.
Some/Many of the people I come across in the Orlando area learned of the lady I met, and in the end I was punished for no reason and she was suggestively underground famous, exploited, and I became an enemy to some/many people I encounter. The whole world has her in the back of their mind, and it must stimulate her in weird ways. She's not the same as before, in some bad ways. Everyone flocked to this person I know through my underground fame because of her race and age and because they were jealous so to ruin it for me. This is the first time they did something to that degree to someone I knew.
What's so funny is the people in Orlando always dote on her. Like, if she tries to do be nice to me instead of using her underground fame over me, people are like, "Oh, you, cute thing! Sneaky!" They came into the situation and forgot about me being important, like with my relationships. About her being my friend, they think something like, "Oh, you, cute thing! [She needs to be stimulated.]" She was a very good, strong person, and people just wanted to believe she was their new toy, particularly I know happens maybe more here where I live, in the Orlando / Central Florida area.
I can't trust Generation X to be parental to me and nice to me because, while wanting to look good in their relation to people from Generation Y etc., they just forget about it and something bad happens, too. They go so drowsy, like they totally forget about things, and it ends up affecting my life, socially, because people judge my thoughts on the inside they can read into, so I have no chance to think in private. They think they ended up having to discipline me, pretending I thought something wrong under pressure. Some of these people act like they did so much right and had such discipline. I feel like Generation X just uses Generation Y to look good and they stopped being as attractive, as we got out of high school. They usually don't do much for us. They are more like drowsy siblings that want to be seen as parental to us.
Wednesday, August 22, 2018
Southerners in the USA
I lived in the South my whole life, Florida and New Orleans.
Southerners with Southern ancestry repeat themselves when you already thought about it.
Southerners copy Northerners.
Southerners with Southern ancestry repeat themselves when you already thought about it.
Southerners copy Northerners.
Flash Mobs
I took these down from my main blog this afternoon.
This is from Minnesota, USA.
Australia!
Orlando, Florida, USA
This is from Minnesota, USA.
Australia!
Orlando, Florida, USA
Tuesday, August 21, 2018
Story by Me - Written Just Now
I've written many stories following this plot.
There was a house in America in the Midwest filled with Germans, Scandinavians, and Russians. Their history went back 200 years.
There was a big house, where many citizens inhabited it.
In the 2nd basement, which was the lowest, there lived a little girl named Christina. She was 9 years old. She owned a small blue-gray kitten, which drank cream from a little bowl. She was wearing a black dress. Her hair was black, sorta set the par for what was what naturally. Her eyes were actually more green, rather than brown or blue or yellow. Her nose was dainty with a point and well embedded in her sometimes rather curious face. Her skin was lily white, and her lips and cheeks were pink like petunias. She also loved wearing her boots. She had a rather plain room and her bed stowed away. Most of the things they had they shared. Like, they had 7 different Bibles, and so on. Mass was a glorious event every 14 days. They wore fancy hats and dresses.
Today, Christina was playing with another girl who was 5 years old. Her name was Bridget. She was a young girl with light brown hair, blue eyes, and fair skin. She sobbed to Christina, who was resilient, because life was so moody during this Romantic era. She was in a silky yellowish dress and little girl shoes. Christina picked her up and held her and spoke to her for about 5 minutes. She took her upstairs, where she was helped to nourishment.
What happened was that there was magic, witchcraft and wizardry. The house was large and many adults inhabited.
They were going on a caravan to a carnival. They went and made camp a bit more than halfway. They surrounded the camp with fire. A young girl with straight, light, reddish brown hair who was only just 6 named Lucy woke up terrified to see a large wolf looking at her. Christina awoke a man, and another girl who was 8 tended to Lucy.
Finally they arrived. Christina went in the tunnel of love. There were other older people on this magnificent trail, but most people shunned it.
They returned home. Then, they were going to all trek the land and sail overseas. That they did, leaving their "things" behind. There were some adult women and men here. The men were speaking of business. Christina was quite a lady. She sat nostalgically on the bay, while other girls moped about, tired from the trip and apprehensive to the doings of what was up ahead. A few older girls got together and made chat. The older ladies held the toddlers or young children. The kids were rather moody about whether or not they wanted to socialize. In the end, with the help of the "parents" or adults, they did. Some of them sat in their laps, and some of them were carried. One girl named Shirley sat in the lap of a woman, while the woman stroked her and was able to kiss her and held her cooing her and talking. So, Christina meandered about thinking back on what she knew and a lady came over to her who could tell she was actually seriously moody and comforted her and picked her up and rocked her, while serious thoughts overcame her. Another girl who was 11 with smooth red hair was also feeling moody and was settled down by another lady and picked up.
Finally, the boat arrived, and the girls were all sent snug to sleep, while the older girls were tended to that they get to sleep soundly, as well, and that their moods be recognized. They arrived in the Netherlands, and they stayed there and had fun exploring mysterious feelings and having fun with life, in a new way for a change for them.
They were to go somewhere else. Somewhere, there was danger, so the group split up to help out in different places. Christina became a maid for a mother with 2 daughters and helped get things done. In the end, she left and moved to Africa and learned secrets of life. After that, the people she knew networked back again and told what had happened.
There was a house in America in the Midwest filled with Germans, Scandinavians, and Russians. Their history went back 200 years.
There was a big house, where many citizens inhabited it.
In the 2nd basement, which was the lowest, there lived a little girl named Christina. She was 9 years old. She owned a small blue-gray kitten, which drank cream from a little bowl. She was wearing a black dress. Her hair was black, sorta set the par for what was what naturally. Her eyes were actually more green, rather than brown or blue or yellow. Her nose was dainty with a point and well embedded in her sometimes rather curious face. Her skin was lily white, and her lips and cheeks were pink like petunias. She also loved wearing her boots. She had a rather plain room and her bed stowed away. Most of the things they had they shared. Like, they had 7 different Bibles, and so on. Mass was a glorious event every 14 days. They wore fancy hats and dresses.
Today, Christina was playing with another girl who was 5 years old. Her name was Bridget. She was a young girl with light brown hair, blue eyes, and fair skin. She sobbed to Christina, who was resilient, because life was so moody during this Romantic era. She was in a silky yellowish dress and little girl shoes. Christina picked her up and held her and spoke to her for about 5 minutes. She took her upstairs, where she was helped to nourishment.
What happened was that there was magic, witchcraft and wizardry. The house was large and many adults inhabited.
They were going on a caravan to a carnival. They went and made camp a bit more than halfway. They surrounded the camp with fire. A young girl with straight, light, reddish brown hair who was only just 6 named Lucy woke up terrified to see a large wolf looking at her. Christina awoke a man, and another girl who was 8 tended to Lucy.
Finally they arrived. Christina went in the tunnel of love. There were other older people on this magnificent trail, but most people shunned it.
They returned home. Then, they were going to all trek the land and sail overseas. That they did, leaving their "things" behind. There were some adult women and men here. The men were speaking of business. Christina was quite a lady. She sat nostalgically on the bay, while other girls moped about, tired from the trip and apprehensive to the doings of what was up ahead. A few older girls got together and made chat. The older ladies held the toddlers or young children. The kids were rather moody about whether or not they wanted to socialize. In the end, with the help of the "parents" or adults, they did. Some of them sat in their laps, and some of them were carried. One girl named Shirley sat in the lap of a woman, while the woman stroked her and was able to kiss her and held her cooing her and talking. So, Christina meandered about thinking back on what she knew and a lady came over to her who could tell she was actually seriously moody and comforted her and picked her up and rocked her, while serious thoughts overcame her. Another girl who was 11 with smooth red hair was also feeling moody and was settled down by another lady and picked up.
Finally, the boat arrived, and the girls were all sent snug to sleep, while the older girls were tended to that they get to sleep soundly, as well, and that their moods be recognized. They arrived in the Netherlands, and they stayed there and had fun exploring mysterious feelings and having fun with life, in a new way for a change for them.
They were to go somewhere else. Somewhere, there was danger, so the group split up to help out in different places. Christina became a maid for a mother with 2 daughters and helped get things done. In the end, she left and moved to Africa and learned secrets of life. After that, the people she knew networked back again and told what had happened.
Getting Old? or Growing Bad?
Some things used to be more exciting, but people seem to have lost it. Some people didn't get their turn.
3 or 6 "Birds With One Stone"
I was going to college taking the bus, scratch those things...
I used to go to church by bus, scratch all that...
I was gonna use my money to eat out a few times a week by bus, but Orlando is so unpleasant, anyway, save money and scratch that.
I used to go to church by bus, scratch all that...
I was gonna use my money to eat out a few times a week by bus, but Orlando is so unpleasant, anyway, save money and scratch that.
How People See Me
I just saw in my mind how someone is inclined to see me, like I'm a dorky little toddler with dark skin trinkling her toys on the floor, which I was, but in a sinful view, like it's all tacky and empty or something. I think someone keeps seeing me as a baby to make them feel like they aren't actually tacky themselves.
Something Worse Than My Problems - Central Florida, a Lost Cause
I was thinking how bad I was by accident, but then I found company in my misery in that Central Florida has a racist issue going on here. They are tacky and "out there" trying to see if that makes them seem whiter to other people who may not be as fair or European looking from other races, when everyone is really beautiful and, in some way, desirable. Who cares about race? No one cares about how fat or skinny you are, neither. Sometimes, fatter people and very fat people look better.
Who knows what kinds of problems these people face every day for their racism and way of acting funky and quirky in sinful ways.
I'm also sure that racism is just wasteful and spewed using up their energy. Who cares? Is this some deep, dark secret that magnets their mind?
Who knows what kinds of problems these people face every day for their racism and way of acting funky and quirky in sinful ways.
I'm also sure that racism is just wasteful and spewed using up their energy. Who cares? Is this some deep, dark secret that magnets their mind?
Monday, August 20, 2018
Update
I added a site of my writing, listed on the side of christinabarrett.com. I renamed the other site "Cool Things."
My Writing
Cool Things
My Writing
Cool Things
Latino, Japanese, & Asian Babies
I took this one where I live, in the Orlando, Florida area.
Latinos and Italians shouldn't say they are whiter than Asians because they can be more clumsy, like rough and hairy.
Middle Easterners are highly intelligent and sought after.
"Whose line is it?"
Someone I know in their head likes to recite to me ...
"You were told / I told you ... to come."
"You were told / I told you ... to come."
My life certainly is "abnormal."
"Stupid" people from up north...
I feel like I'm being stalked by murderers, just out there to get you, justifying that you did something wrong and they can ruin your life, when you're just rather different from them.
It certainly is abnormal, to pick on someone smart and nice, as they learn the ways of the world and are nicer than other people. Whose business is it anyway, thinking you know them better than they do? even if you are older or related and not supposed to be doing that.
The people monitoring me in private keep going "loony" and acting like they can take things away from my life. It's a ho down, with people who didn't talk to me much acting important like they know me better than other people, when they don't seem to know me much better but maybe people I know. I didn't want people to get hurt from this.
Sunday, August 19, 2018
Wasn't everything perfect for me, before, but now it's, like, weird but better in some ways?
The people involved monitoring me in private make problems. It's not just something that popped out of the world. Maybe, that submission to older whites took precedence, in the wrong way. I know people also feel pressured from the world, with their own lifestyle at stake.
So, it was the wrong kind of submission to older whites practiced and one's own vulnerability. It wasn't something done alone but who someone already was and still is.
The people involved monitoring me in private make problems. It's not just something that popped out of the world. Maybe, that submission to older whites took precedence, in the wrong way. I know people also feel pressured from the world, with their own lifestyle at stake.
So, it was the wrong kind of submission to older whites practiced and one's own vulnerability. It wasn't something done alone but who someone already was and still is.
Saturday, August 18, 2018
I Just Had a Revelation
Come for something you want? Or something you supposedly had?? Come to hear of a joke, in a certain realm, where you're disregarded again, even worse, in your life. Don't worry, it will be relatively short and sweet, your joke. Why? Because people hate me. Many people would be fun, though, and are fine.
Hayley Westenra
She is from New Zealand and her dad is Dutch and her mom is Irish. She sang with a good group in Ireland. She's 1 year younger than me.
What I've Been up To
Things I've Done Recently
•summer semester at a community college
•violin lessons from a total of 3 teachers
•church
Now, I am just saving my money to eat out, sometimes get new clothes, to get things I need, and sometimes if I want something special to make me happy. I am teaching myself violin and German. I plan to move to Germany ASAP (as soon as possible.) I am so happy about my new plan!
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