So!  Now, that didn't just happen.  Wait-  The older lady I like can make her life better.  She can claim her private doings are important to other people, if it's not me.  She can use this against me, but she's one of the good people.

People are messing with people's privacy.  I might have gotten some attention, but now they exploited an older lady I like.  I didn't know they had it in them, in a way.  I did sorta, but I couldn't have prevented it like I couldn't prevent Hillary Clinton from giving in...

Is exploiting an older lady I like your definition of love?

Why did people say my underground fame alone was who I was?  That wasn't very interesting.

...but the person I like said they didn't have problems with me.  Only some people are messing around in the dirt with my life.  She's not the only good person.  Most people seem to be.  It is safe.

Wasn't everything perfect for me, before, but now it's, like, weird but better in some ways?


The people involved monitoring me in private make problems.  It's not just something that popped out of the world.  Maybe, that submission to older whites took precedence, in the wrong way.  I know people also feel pressured from the world, with their own lifestyle at stake.

So, it was the wrong kind of submission to older whites practiced and one's own vulnerability.  It wasn't something done alone but who someone already was and still is.

Well?

I feel people are careless with me socially because of my race.  My dad said I was so sweet, but people didn't treat me like, "Aw, look how cute little Christina is!"