I wonder if people mistake my German for Chinese because they are big.

I just had a strange feeling that I'm not even interested in people, who are on Facebook.  The internet may be cool, but the people on it are still just the people that they must have been before.  Is Facebook everyone's "last resort?"

I noticed I am treated badly like I have to believe I am in trouble, and it's catching on and people think they are above me, just because of racism and I'm not perfect.

The people involved monitoring me in private are saying and unsaying things.

Some people channel their anger to me but I am at risk of losing all lest I flinch, what if I have not all already.

What if you couldn't say anything because you were considered bad, like me? though I'm not really.

The US

Have you ever heard the phrase "do the work?"

I'm dejected.

They keep finding more problems.

Already Lying

They are just ruining my relationship with an older lady one step at at time.  They are acting like I have to go find her before it stops.

The people monitoring me in private are superstitious I'm happy.

They want Generation X together just in case.  Fuck off!

Liars

Females relating to females are supposed to exist.  It's not gay to relate to a female like a female.

Last night, I finished starting all the songs of Suzuki 2 on violin.

While I'm busy fighting, what the fuck is everyone else doing?

I always was reserved to an older lady I like, and it feels like they think I was not okay, in this kind of regard.

What if a certain person does it too who says I didn't get what I want like I want him?

The people monitoring me in private give me more problems than I have in real life.

I can see the nastiness in the old men supposedly involved monitoring me life, not like dads but like brothers who don't know what they're doing.  I get nothing like most people, and if I have a hardship they say it's not good character.

It's like some people are just messengers to me on a board game of life.

When I feel good, they get mad.

They ruined my relationship with others to ruin my life.

They are ruining an older lady I like.

They won't stop molesting the older lady I like.

They're superstitious and controlling my life and others in it.

They want to take away my being able to sense things, they said it when I thought I closed the door aggressively but not slamming it.  They won't stop.

Get this, though...  I went to use the bathroom and closed the door aggressively to signal the person making the annoying noises to stop but not slamming it.  Then, they emitted I can never have my relationship.  People are acting like it all around from the monitoring me in private.  I was just trying to eat and my family was always on the verge imprinting a bemused smile to me.  The people monitoring me in private keep acting bemused and batshit crazy getting under my skin too.  Now, they won't stop bothering me, too.  I am worried they are not really women.

The people monitoring me in private are acting like I can't have a relationship with someone who likes me and who I like.

I'm not sure what's off.  I'm dressed.  I just had a meal with my family, and something seemed wrong about me, like it was too late to change how I was.  I feel funny about how some present themselves.  Already, I felt I was in for it.

I wish things were better for someone regarding some people in my life.

Please don't mistake my sincerity.

I want to do something smart, but I'm just going to bed.

The IMDb parody boards can't tell me what to do.

I think the people monitoring me in private are mad at me.

No wonder some people don't post.

What I say is not taken as important nor means anything to anyone.

Does Ellen DeGeneres believe in making others famous but not herself?

I wonder what my old peers are up to.

The last thing an old friend did was get upset I didn't assume to wait for her for a project, before she stopped talking to me normally.

My life is such a joke.  Things I say alter the course of my future because people think they can take my thoughts and jots the wrong way.

Did someone set me not to be accepted?  What's the problem now.  Who knows what will be decided tomorrow.

So, when I'm not in disagreement, what can I do?

Do people with older parents just copy older generations and force younger ones to accept it?

So, now what do I get to do?  No one trusts me but trusts my kinda crowd?

I blame my old friends and family in all its extension.

OK

I lost my friends and didn't make new ones.

Message Board

I said this:

Re: Are you afraid of what older adults tell you to do?

Someone else said this:

I don't do what no one tells me to



Okay, so am I the sacrifice?  Who did this?  I need to know.  Older people?  Is there something wrong with talking to me?  I may not have the same opinion tomorrow or when I wake up.

I'm not up for this kind of retarded excitement.  I wonder if I'll make it to bed.

I don't really trust the people monitoring me in private over her.

In the end, it's a racist "accident."

They put her in a position people can't refuse.  Also, putting someone in the face of a bipolar nation can only equal war.

They started to mention an older lady I like being mistreated in suggestive ways, like she doesn't matter as long as she's nice to me.

The people monitoring me in private keep beating at me.

What if no one was allowed to post about Ellen DeGeneres? or watch her show if they wanted to?

Other people are allowed to talk about Ellen DeGeneres, and I respected her first.

It doesn't matter what they say.

How can people tease me about a relationship with an older lady I already gave?  What are they always on about?  Did I lose it altogether?

I shouldn't be in trouble with people important in my life.

So, why can't these bad people be ignored?  They're simply up to no good.

The people monitoring me in private seem to be imprinting on my existence the influence of the ways of someone which I try to avoid.  I'm trying to ignore them, right now, because I'm not here to follow this.

The world is shit.

They're just a bunch of racist vagrants.

What are they counting on?  For some mixed race person to become a fair weathered celebrity but not live gloriously like people like Marilyn Monroe?

Marilyn Monroe

(image credit)

I can't sleep!

I'm having fun, but I'm not having fun with some of the things people waste time negotiating on about my life, like that I'm in trouble and nothing I do anyone likes to talk to me.

What can I do for my life?

I already had priorities set.

Funny Words I Thought Of

insecure

not "on rapport"

People have annoyed me and get onto me when I think about them in a certain way.

My life goes that my relationship with an older lady randomly pops up as being "stolen" by others I know.  It's so pathetic yet sad, people trying to be something at the last minute with some things but not caring to talk to me otherwise.

We are not all the same, and we are not all going to be!

Everyone went somewhat unnecessarily and insincerely wild about something it seemed like maybe I could get, but now it's used as a permanent disciplinary tool, by making it then not true for me, according to people monitoring me in private who negotiate with the people I talk to.

"Where is the love?"

Why can't we just ignore some things?

Like, some people don't get along, but we work on that.  You don't have to cancel all your other plans in the shadows.

A Guide to the Truth

I'll show you not to discipline me.

What if ... Younger people cannot be racist to me in one way, or else.

What if ... Older people can't "get" whatever they want, or else their generation doesn't matter, which I guess for some that's unfortunately already true.

I didn't really fight or hurt anyone like other people.

Funny people who can't have normal conversations.