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"Re: Which periods in history had the best Fashion?"

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I was told by 2 music schools I need to take dance.

I guess/remember I do have a middle range look on the chart of specialties.

Bella Thorne comes from a family with a good mom.

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These 3 together make a statement.

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a child actor

I'm glad I'm not white.

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I need to work on my goals.

Now, I'm not all about online.  I'm about what's offline that goes online, too.

Some people are really losing their eye on the prize if I don't care.

It's their fault.

It seems like everyone else has given up on life.

Now, everyone else traded places and are sweet and innocent.  Good for them; I'm strong and mighty, supernatural powers.

People are leaving Generation X to their own resources.  If Generation YZ panics, it's okay.

My life used to mean something, but people want me to even it up to theirs, like we mean business.

Pretty much, I'm not liked.

What, "nothing I say means anything?"

What, "I don't matter?"

People know I am leaving and some are making it hard for me.

I was gonna go somewhere but maybe need more sleep.

I never get to say anything, but it's too bad I don't feel good about how easily and how huge of trouble I get in, when there are other things in my life that are important.

Who made it so I sorta lost some of my relationship or will have different ones instead?  It's hard to say it's anyone's fault.  If it doesn't make sense.  Apparently, I'm just too stupid.

I feel like I was offered something and then it was laughter that "it's a given" I "don't get it."

Some people think they are too good for me.

People in Orlando act like they're over me and innocent.

I allotted time in my life giving up on other things and it's been used up.

You wish he'd keep to himself if he's that powerful.

I keep getting moles.

There's a priest at church.  He communicated to me that, every time I shake his hand, I get a mole or if I wore my iPod Shuffle.  One of these things or both happened.  I don't even go to church, now.  You know, a little sketchy dark mark or a little bump on my skin.

My life is so shitty in some ways, and I can't find a way out.  I wanted better exercise.  The buses take a long time, though.

Should I secure a life of excitement in Germany in US relations?

"Don't listen to..."  Check.

I didn't have a problem.

Did you know it's too late?  I'm sorry I didn't make it before I existed.  What to do about how the world is, now?  I don't have a car and am tired on medicine.  I feel something drawing me to do something in the US first when I was excited to move to Germany.  Well, technically, I should move to Europe, ASAP.  I've never been there, yet.

Suddenly, people think I was always worthless compared to everyone else, when I think they are all unappealing.

My life degenerates.

It's like my life doesn't matter.

Stupid racist people act mean just in case all of a sudden to me racially like I've always been treated that way or should have.

People think that sometimes black people symbolically represent me.

I could have had a good relationship, but people keep ruining it, like the people monitoring me in private, Orlando making it so hard for me to focus since I'm not born here, some people I know always onto me...  I'm in trouble if bad words come to mind by accident when attacked repetitively because someone pointed out I shouldn't do it when I never thought of violence/harm, before.  I'm mad about me being in trouble and everyone else is okay in the end.

I know my mixed race is why people are mean just to me.

They act like I'm going to cross over to them.

They don't hate on Germans.

and Italian Americans

Why do Latinos keep hating on me, some of them?

It's like I'm already in trouble.

My life is so bad.

I'm in trouble even though I am nice to someone.  Who knows what the next thing to say is?

Someone can't stand me, and so people are monitoring me in private restricting what I can post online without them hurting me..

People keep saying I wanted something that wasn't right and that my instincts saved me.

It seems like no one likes anyone because they like Ellen DeGeneres better or Johnny Depp.  It doesn't mean you have to like anyone less.  There are lots of people who aren't famous who are not bad.

Meanwhile...

...there seems as though there is no legitimate hope for me because I didn't start violin early enough and maybe damaged my arms when upset because of watching Ellen DeGeneres and talking to fans of Johnny Depp.

....an older lady I like was inappropriately stimulated when exploited.  Now, I have to juggle the idea that the people monitoring me in private had it done.  People don't always feel like they matter to me then.


...people think I am bad because I accidentally spammed some people and was upset at others.  They all blocked me, though I was just having a hard time and they wouldn't talk to me.  This wasn't yesterday; this was over 10 years ago.

...It was uptight watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show every day in 2012-2016.  She didn't really accept me and exploited an older lady I like, with the excuse she found out.

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