Here's a little song ...

I'm learning Suzuki 2 and here is one song I am doing, 1st in the book.  Funny, I don't even use vibrato in the songs, yet.  I didn't even find this song emotional.

People are obsessed with rather childish people with young dads and/or 15-year-old moms.  Only recently, did they get the signal to pretend to grow up, in some way, just to hide what they're really up to.  You know you can act young again, especially when you are still young and active.

Some people have kids very young, like 20.  Are they becoming competition to normal people?

People keep simply getting in my way hating on me stupidly.

People keep indulging an older lady I know in bad ways.

What do I do that is so bad?

Why do people assume I am bad because I am not a Late Boomer?

Why do some people try to appeal to me to "get a rise" out of me to think something that makes an older lady I know upset? likes saying, "Yes, Christina, you did this, something wrong."

I don't see many young people.

I should move to Germany young because it is in Europe, so I don't waste my younger years being ployed by the USA.

The people involved monitoring me in private keep acting like an alarm is going off now concerning an older lady I know.

I used to get to talk to some people more, but I think something bad happened because they don't talk as much, in general.

I bet German Americans would like another girl who is half Asian and half Western European, like west of Germany.

I miss being a music major.  I wanna go back, but I feel decrepit.  Also, it's 14 years later.  I have been singing.  I can still play piano but haven't been much.

I was in this string class in college, and I was good.  No one said anything directly to me about it.  At another music school, an older guy said he did harp as a group class and toured I think The Sound of Music playing harp.  I was gonna keep up violin.  It might have been hard also doing piano and organ, which I had to drive to a church to practice, maybe M-F, but not for many years total playing organ, 1 in college.

People used to find me accomplished: art, music, etc., clubs in high school.  I don't know why I would seem dormant now.  I'm good at posting online now because it's been 10 years I mainly did that more than anything.  You know, like talking well.  I didn't remember I wanted to play violin, but I ended up doing that after all these years.  I've been playing 3 years.  I may have damaged arms from when I was upset watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and some before from being upset at racism against me online on the Johnny Depp board.

Just to let some of you know who are genuinely interested, I do one little thing wrong and only my world falls apart or that of those I know.  Other people get away with being mean.

People here in Orlando are in my face making me feel since I am nice I have to say no one should talk to me.

I feel rather tired but not like I'm gonna drop or am uninterested in doing things that are easy, like posting online.

Orlando is fixed I am the bad one.

It seems Generation X is unsuccessfully stimulated by Late Boomers.

I feel hatred 24/7 for defending myself because I got physically upset some walking home.

Do people get on Ellen DeGeneres's good side for being mean to someone she is against?  She knew about me, though it's not my fault, and she went against me.

Am I a bad person compared to others my age?

Something Funny

There's an older lady I know, and we have a good relationship. 

I was underground famous before I met her.

Some/Many of the people I come across in the Orlando area learned of the lady I met, and in the end I was punished for no reason and she was suggestively underground famous, exploited, and I became an enemy to some/many people I encounter.  The whole world has her in the back of their mind, and it must stimulate her in weird ways.  She's not the same as before, in some bad ways.  Everyone flocked to this person I know through my underground fame because of her race and age and because they were jealous so to ruin it for me.  This is the first time they did something to that degree to someone I knew.

What's so funny is the people in Orlando always dote on her.  Like, if she tries to do be nice to me instead of using her underground fame over me, people are like, "Oh, you, cute thing! Sneaky!"  They came into the situation and forgot about me being important, like with my relationships.  About her being my friend, they think something like, "Oh, you, cute thing!  [She needs to be stimulated.]"  She was a very good, strong person, and people just wanted to believe she was their new toy, particularly I know happens maybe more here where I live, in the Orlando / Central Florida area.

I can't trust Generation X to be parental to me and nice to me because, while wanting to look good in their relation to people from Generation Y etc., they just forget about it and something bad happens, too.  They go so drowsy, like they totally forget about things, and it ends up affecting my life, socially, because people judge my thoughts on the inside they can read into, so I have no chance to think in private.  They think they ended up having to discipline me, pretending I thought something wrong under pressure.  Some of these people act like they did so much right and had such discipline.  I feel like Generation X just uses Generation Y to look good and they stopped being as attractive, as we got out of high school.  They usually don't do much for us.  They are more like drowsy siblings that want to be seen as parental to us.