Wasn't everything perfect for me, before, but now it's, like, weird but better in some ways?


The people involved monitoring me in private make problems.  It's not just something that popped out of the world.  Maybe, that submission to older whites took precedence, in the wrong way.  I know people also feel pressured from the world, with their own lifestyle at stake.

So, it was the wrong kind of submission to older whites practiced and one's own vulnerability.  It wasn't something done alone but who someone already was and still is.