People are putting me in the wrong, saying I demand people to do things somehow.  I always was very polite about this and said no one had to do anything for me.

I just know that people seemed to get in the way of my life.  I'm not supposed to forget it.

I am sad about my life, too, and I don't really know how to be happy.  I want some kind of field of expertise, like my lifelong dream, and to live in Europe.  I'm too old for anyone to care about me now in the real world.