There's not much to say or do, but do you feel sorta emotional how sweet life must be for people with sexy moms?

The next excuse is that magic might exist instead and maybe I'm the last thing on earth anyone would consider okay to co-exist with.

I could get along with Europeans better, but Americans are trying to stop me on account of I'm 1/2 Asian.  It comes up in the process of communicating with them.

Anyone wanna talk?

Orlando ruined a relationship I had because I threw a water bottle on the ground when everyone around me was really trying to get under my skin and bother me.

I feel guilty about having anything, sometimes, now.

I wonder if I'm miserable how I'm treated because people are freaking out trying to get me to feel bad that no one can get along with me that seem attractive.  It seems people manipulated my life the wrong way.

I don't like the way some people think about me, like I'm "a case."  I grew up being about perfectly well-behaved, and now people make me really mad and say I'm no good because I got mad at people being mean to me, which they do a lot in how they act.

I knew it'd be a toss-up on how annoying it is I have to battle weird ideas of things people want and how people think I'm bad and demanding it in my own way, like my way about things, like they think other people do, too, with things.  It's like people accept me and then others say I forced them and need to not communicate.  It's a toss-up about that and how I'm treated, but I think I'm treated that way because of it.

These problems prevail in some of the US.  Sometimes, other countries don't have to deal with these problems.

I used to be encouraged, and now I keep being told I'm trying to force people to do things for me.  If anyone does anything for me, people tell me I'm bad!  What is their problem!  They are freaks!  I am afraid they are unintelligent.  They are easily persuaded and worried and make snap decisions that affect their lives.  I cannot live with juggling messages I did not even request.  I was off and happy, and now I'm the juggled bad guy.

I guess people were right.  Hollywood is shit.  Don't throw your worthless life away to be even more worthless.  It's all about people who play music, sing, and do ballet.  I was interested in a specialty already.

People are putting me in the wrong, saying I demand people to do things somehow.  I always was very polite about this and said no one had to do anything for me.

I just know that people seemed to get in the way of my life.  I'm not supposed to forget it.

I am sad about my life, too, and I don't really know how to be happy.  I want some kind of field of expertise, like my lifelong dream, and to live in Europe.  I'm too old for anyone to care about me now in the real world.

So, if I was born as a Late Boomer or their Generation Z kid, I would be worthy of being happy socially?  I am kinda happy, but a lot of strange things happen, where I'm apprehensive of life and trying to concentrate.

Not everyone does music, but anyone can do art.

I saw a young American couple move to Switzerland.  I hope I can move to Europe, too, specifically Germany also for its classical music, primarily my learning violin and being a former piano major.

Some people know musical theater.

We just have children's music very young and then it's pop.

1 + 1 = 2

People in the US who are young are not taught to "like" opera nor classical music.

Me

I wonder if Asian children think Asian animation like Kung Fu Panda are weird.

I'm tired of certain people, acting all knowing of my once private life.

People keep getting in my face acting awkward and getting under my skin and wonder why bad thoughts come to mind and say I'm bad "telepathically" if it does.

Actually, they bring other people into the picture who are not supposed to be in harm's way.

People, these days, keeping turning on to the idea they think I am in trouble and that no one else is.  It's not like that.

I want to be away from some people, too.  They think I am submitting to them.

Well, I finished cleaning.  Eating and tired.  Need a shower and practice violin and bed later!