Everyone thinks they've proved me shit.

"Famous Last Words"

"I want her to have something."

I was fine with other generations, but people are going in and messing with my life.

You didn't suddenly get smarter than me.  I'm too good for that or anything to do with anyone like that.

There's nothing there.

Early Generation X teamed up with Early Boomers to parent us Generation XY by doing stupid things, to say if we feel a bit giddy and moody and sorta mock life that we're being bad and that they're just there to tell us not to do that, but nothing important or adequately intelligent or even right.

I'm trying to address my problems.  I want something social to talk about.

Why throw me away with my dad?

Because he had a kid like me and was born in 1950?

When People Watch TV

Usually, it seems 8-10 PM.

Why do people think they can tell me what to do?

It seems like all my blogging is meaningless and I'm gonna die when I'm 90.

I came in a good girl, and the Orlando / "Central Florida" area started out bad and quickly flashed into putting on an act.

I give up on clothes!  It's too much money.

Why are people thinking I am bothering them to say I'm not really my dad and I'm not my mom's race as inferior as a living being?  I like animals, too!

Piano Music

This reminds me of one of my piano teachers I had in the late 1990s.

New, Affordable Idea for Outfit Style

 

Sample New Outift

Baton Twirler

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I need to get it together.

I need to eat more of more food.

I have Sloppy Joe's to finish with buns I dislike with it.  Maybe, I should get chicken patties that go with them.  Mash some potatos, get some canned veggies/legumes.

I feel some people following me like I still like them and they want me out of another relationship.

I bet he gossips, in his own way.

Someone is bothering me because I talked about them and what they did to me.

Orchestra, Band, or Pop Music?  Which do you like?

Is the discontinuation of the popularity of MySpace and Johnny Depp a sin?  Is Ellen DeGeneres still the same?

Why are some people respected more than me?

Asians have to be so careful around white people, who get whatever they want, easily, so that it's unfair and no one knows what's going on.

How do you know if you like anyone, these days?

Okay, so, what started Johnny Depp's popularity after Pirates of the Caribbean?

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I'm "getting" the Early Boomers who people aren't as social about as you'd think they'd claim to be.

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They are ruining my life for posting about what Ellen DeGeneres does.

I feel unaccepted for not being a total blonde my whole life.

Baby Boomers just say Generation X is not good enough, no matter what.

"U R the 1" on Music Choice

I think this rare CD was released in 1997 and is hard to find the CD of.

I respect people like Ellen DeGeneres, but they trick me and then are mean to me.

I think of bad words by accident because Ellen DeGeneres acted like I already thought violent thoughts and said not to.  I've been watched and it's stuck.

Just because I am nice to my parents doesn't mean I don't want to do anything, in life in the world.  What about Mother Teresa?

Someone seems surprised if I share traits with other white people.

In piano, I did, I think, 6 books.

Most Americans may be cuter, but I explained I went through hardship from others and have it together more otherwise.

A priest thinks I want to be trash and am.

Suzuki

There are 10 books, and I am almost done with 2. There aren't many songs in it, though, maybe around 10 or so. I plan to record a video of myself playing all the songs in each book and posting it on my YouTube.

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People think there is no reason for me to be happy.

Someone keeps being mean to me.

My life is shitty because of other people, but other people still hate me and see it in the worst possible way in some cases.

People make friends with other races to look good and attract pity but have to ruin their life and dump them.

Not scared to be happy, not scared to be mean.

Some people would do something wrong to someone if they wouldn't get caught by the police.

A Happy Plan

I already cleaned.  I want to own, like, nothing, but for things like violin books, clothes I like, maybe my DVDs unless I can sell them.

I am trying to move to Europe, specifically Germany I want and to learn violin.

Oh well, it's still too late.  No one trusts me to behave appropriately.

I wonder if psychotic medicine messes with my mind.  I might have more energy and fight in me without it.

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"Re: Which periods in history had the best Fashion?"

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I was told by 2 music schools I need to take dance.

I guess/remember I do have a middle range look on the chart of specialties.

Bella Thorne comes from a family with a good mom.

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These 3 together make a statement.

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a child actor

I'm glad I'm not white.

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I need to work on my goals.

Now, I'm not all about online.  I'm about what's offline that goes online, too.

Some people are really losing their eye on the prize if I don't care.

It's their fault.

It seems like everyone else has given up on life.

Now, everyone else traded places and are sweet and innocent.  Good for them; I'm strong and mighty, supernatural powers.

People are leaving Generation X to their own resources.  If Generation YZ panics, it's okay.

My life used to mean something, but people want me to even it up to theirs, like we mean business.

Pretty much, I'm not liked.

What, "nothing I say means anything?"

What, "I don't matter?"

People know I am leaving and some are making it hard for me.

I was gonna go somewhere but maybe need more sleep.

I never get to say anything, but it's too bad I don't feel good about how easily and how huge of trouble I get in, when there are other things in my life that are important.

Who made it so I sorta lost some of my relationship or will have different ones instead?  It's hard to say it's anyone's fault.  If it doesn't make sense.  Apparently, I'm just too stupid.

I feel like I was offered something and then it was laughter that "it's a given" I "don't get it."

Some people think they are too good for me.

People in Orlando act like they're over me and innocent.

I allotted time in my life giving up on other things and it's been used up.

You wish he'd keep to himself if he's that powerful.

I keep getting moles.

There's a priest at church.  He communicated to me that, every time I shake his hand, I get a mole or if I wore my iPod Shuffle.  One of these things or both happened.  I don't even go to church, now.  You know, a little sketchy dark mark or a little bump on my skin.

My life is so shitty in some ways, and I can't find a way out.  I wanted better exercise.  The buses take a long time, though.

Should I secure a life of excitement in Germany in US relations?

"Don't listen to..."  Check.

I didn't have a problem.

Did you know it's too late?  I'm sorry I didn't make it before I existed.  What to do about how the world is, now?  I don't have a car and am tired on medicine.  I feel something drawing me to do something in the US first when I was excited to move to Germany.  Well, technically, I should move to Europe, ASAP.  I've never been there, yet.

Suddenly, people think I was always worthless compared to everyone else, when I think they are all unappealing.

My life degenerates.

It's like my life doesn't matter.

Stupid racist people act mean just in case all of a sudden to me racially like I've always been treated that way or should have.

People think that sometimes black people symbolically represent me.

I could have had a good relationship, but people keep ruining it, like the people monitoring me in private, Orlando making it so hard for me to focus since I'm not born here, some people I know always onto me...  I'm in trouble if bad words come to mind by accident when attacked repetitively because someone pointed out I shouldn't do it when I never thought of violence/harm, before.  I'm mad about me being in trouble and everyone else is okay in the end.

I know my mixed race is why people are mean just to me.

They act like I'm going to cross over to them.

They don't hate on Germans.

and Italian Americans

Why do Latinos keep hating on me, some of them?

It's like I'm already in trouble.

My life is so bad.

I'm in trouble even though I am nice to someone.  Who knows what the next thing to say is?

Someone can't stand me, and so people are monitoring me in private restricting what I can post online without them hurting me..

People keep saying I wanted something that wasn't right and that my instincts saved me.

It seems like no one likes anyone because they like Ellen DeGeneres better or Johnny Depp.  It doesn't mean you have to like anyone less.  There are lots of people who aren't famous who are not bad.

Meanwhile...

...there seems as though there is no legitimate hope for me because I didn't start violin early enough and maybe damaged my arms when upset because of watching Ellen DeGeneres and talking to fans of Johnny Depp.

....an older lady I like was inappropriately stimulated when exploited.  Now, I have to juggle the idea that the people monitoring me in private had it done.  People don't always feel like they matter to me then.


...people think I am bad because I accidentally spammed some people and was upset at others.  They all blocked me, though I was just having a hard time and they wouldn't talk to me.  This wasn't yesterday; this was over 10 years ago.

...It was uptight watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show every day in 2012-2016.  She didn't really accept me and exploited an older lady I like, with the excuse she found out.

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